Ok...

Ok, well I had the absolute worst headache humanity has ever experienced, so I had a dinner of 500 cals. I think I'll eat every other day 500 cals, and than do a three day fast before my boyfriend comes to pick me up next week. I really can't afford to do a detox fast right now because it just destroys my head...the toxins are just so intense. So, no more detox, I just have to load up on those chemicals...heeeheehee, cigs and coffee. No, just kidding. Well, okay, maybe not, but whatever. My emotions have been so crazy these past few days, it's unbelievable. So tomorrow is a total fast, not more than 20 calories I'm thinking...you know, diet coke and coffee and such. Then on Wednesday I'll have a meal, either takeout or an actual meal at the dining hall. That depends on what takeout is. Tonight I could have takeout because it was hoagies, so I took a sub and piled it high with lettuce (god I love that stuff), some onions, mustard (another ana staple, only 5 cals for 2 tablespoons) and some potato chips, I know I know, the last bit wasn't exactly healthy, but I was craving them, but not again, because in truth, they didn't make much of a difference on the sub, so I'll just leave them out next time. I also have some fat free italian dressing that's only 15 cals for 2 tablespoons, so I put a bit of that on too. Damn that sandwich was sooooo good. I could live off of that. So tomorrow it's nothing and then Wednesday food. Yeeehaw. Maybe I'll be down to 143 by the end of this week again. I'm at 145 right now...then again, after that sub, I'm sure I'm more, but whatever...I want some sleep now! g'night!