Ok, well today...

Ok, well today I came to a realization I have been stupidly denying, and that is the fact that I can't miraculously lose huge amounts of weight in a short amount of time, unless of course, I include exercise, which I hate.The problem with looking at weight perse is that it's very deceiving. If you're a difference of 7 pounds from one day to the next. that's not FAT you've lost. That's either water or waste or some other inexplicable reason. Maybe your scale just sucks, but that's now real weight! Maybe 1 pound of it is, (if you've been fasting and restricting and such).So anyway, when I would get on my scale and see two pounds difference from one day to the next I'd get all excited and actually think that was some sort of weight loss I could maintain. WrongFuck I'm stupid sometimes, I swear. I just didn't want to realize the fact that a pound is a pound is 3500 calores. So I worked out a more realistic view of how long it's going to take me to get down to 130. I need this so that I don't resort ot petty dependency on my emotions and then to binging/purging. That's so stupid. I don't want to destroy myself, just contine losing weight. So anyway, here's the deal.I, being 6'2" expend around 1800-2000 calories a day (and if it's more, than so be it, but I'm going to stick with this figure). I lower it a bit more to 1750 because that's a good number to choose and work with . 1750 is half a pound. So if I restrict to 500 calories a day (which is so pathetically easy it makes me laugh), then I will lose the 13 pounds I need to lose in 30 days. So that puts me at around May 6th, just in time for the end of the semester and the beginning of the summer (bathing suits!) to be slimmer. I haven't eaten yet today. Well, I had a glass of metamucil because I need some friggin regularity. I would just not spend the 11 dollars needed for some stupid Psyllium hulks (metamucil) to "bulken" up my diet, but I cross-checked with "real" soluble fiber, things like barly, oatmeal, rice, soy, and wheat, and pease mind you...and I can't get the same amount of dietary fiber out of those (in ratio to their calorie content). Metamucil is 3 grams fiber to 45 calories. I someone knows of a better ratio obtainable in normal foods, please email me at weakerthanu@gmx.net Anyway, I'm off to do some work now, and I have a realistic view point on my weight loss so I know my emotions will be much more in check from now on. I'm out