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OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FUCKED UP BAD! I binged on some more popcorn and a cookie and 2 slices of bread, and now I'm 144/145 (it can't seem to decide). So as a punishment I'm going to fast tomorrow, and I'll run for 20 in the morning. I think the whole 20 minutes of running will become my daily exercise during the week with an hour walk being my weekend plan. I really don't want to work another weekend, I think I'm going to call and tell them that this weekend is my last, because I just can't stand working around food, it's terrible, it really messes me up. I need to be 138 by the end of this week, I really do. So I'll fast tomorrow and go to 500 calories on Tuesday, 300 Wednesday, 500 Thursday, 300 Friday, and so on. I HAVE TO LOSE WEIGHT! I can't believe I screwed myself like this! ARGH! Ok, g'night now. I can't take this anymore.